As i was having a little conversation with couple of my seniors, one question suddenly popped out.
"If an atheist ask you, Do you believe in God? The afterlife? The Heaven and Hell? What will you answer?"
A big part of ourselves will definitely say, "of course I do."
But, think again. Do you think it's that easy?
At first, i was so sure i can answer this question as easy as ABC. Then the conversation continues.
"How if the person eagerly oppose to the belief that you've been holding on so long? The belief that islam is the religion of peace, the belief that Allah(God) created us, the prayers that we constantly do each and every day. And what do you think you will respond if that person say that there is no God right into your face?"
These questions strike my anger. I couldn't resist but to answer with full of hatred.
"How do these people can think that Allah does not exist. He created us, He created this world. Didn't He showed abundance burden of proof for you to believe in Him? Look, look at the world. Look around you. Do you think you can ask for more? No! He showed you but you never responded to what He has been telling you ever since. You've been closing your heart to accept the truth. You are such an ego person!"
I stopped.
Allah knows how much i'll regret if I actually answer like that.
Then i think again, is this what Allah wanted me to answer? I'm not going to show any of the beauty of islam if i'm only getting pissed off by what the atheist said. I'm not going to bring him/her closer to Allah. Infact, I will only reassure him/her that there is no god, my belief was all wrong and The Big Bang Theory was all right.
My senior then said,
"You'll never know how disturbing that situation was to me. The fact that we don't really understand our religion is what makes us undoubtedly a fool to them. We might thought that everything we did was enough for us to say that we are the believers. but what's the proof? Yes. they're also wrong because they just wanted to argue not wanting to know the truth. But, the mistakes that we've been hiding so long is that we don't really know our religion either. How can we make them believe if we were not so sure of what we believe in?"
I'm embarrassed. I'm so sorry My Lord.
Kudos to people who have succeeded in making at least an atheist to ponder upon our beliefs. As for me, i'm still not ready. Honestly I'm very sad to witness the bitter truth about me. But i think this is the best way for me to realize i had to do something better than this. I need to improve myself, to infuse deeply in islam. To acquire the knowledge i should have a long time ago. And the most important thing, to get to know Allah better.
what about you?
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